Emotions and Social Media

Hey guys, my apologies for not writing yesterday. Everything has been crazy with exams coming up next week, and CCAs being due. I’m still really emotional with what happened to Rose, but It’s getting easier.

I’m going to talk about the meeting I was just at for my local “Youth Advisory”. We touched base on a lot of things that relate to the purpose of this blog, and next month I plan on sharing this blog with them. Let’s start with the fact that we are getting a pride parade in my town. I’m so excited, I just want to wear rainbows and dye my hair the colors of the rainbow. Honestly, I don’t care what people would say either. I love representing the fact that I’m apart of this community, and the only thing that could stop me from doing it is someone getting physical. Which I realize is the case for many people out there, and if it’s that bad, tell someone. Send an anonymous letter to your homeroom teacher, or to your principal and you could also talk to a school guidance counselor if you have one.

Another thing we talked about was when people use social media to show how they are feeling. This is something I’m extremely passionate about. When it comes to emotions and really anything related to LGBTQ+ feel free to message me and I’ll let you know what I think. Anyways, back to the topic of emotions and social media. Note, this is not me personally saying FML or KMS when I mention them.

The subject originally came up when a friend of mine mentioned people being over dramatic or attention seeking when they post things like FML or KMN/KMS on their Snap chat or Instagram stories. Which sometimes, it is the case but, sometimes they truly need people to help them. I mentioned how sometimes, people won’t talk in person because they are awkward and/or scared. I only know this because I’ve been there before. When I was 12 I had a rough patch in my life but, I was too afraid to tell anyone. I thought about suicide, but I just couldn’t. I knew it wasn’t the answer. My mom has always told me, suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. I think that if you just failed a test and you’re upset, that’s not a reason to say “FML I’m gonna KMS” on your story. If your parents are really strict about your grades and your failing class and they are giving you a hard time, it may not be appropriate to say necessarily that exact phrase, but, if you’re legitimately experiencing suicidal thoughts, certainly reach out. It’s important. You are important. Your life is important. You matter, never forget that.

At the meeting, we also talked about doing a trash bash so I’m excited about that, and I’m also going to be speaking in front of the town or “City” Council, so that will be an incredible experience as well. If you guys have any questions or really anything you want to tell me, please send out an email.

Talk tomorrow, bye!

All about me

Hello everyone, today has been kind of rough. I’ve been feeling sick to my stomach all day with no apparent reason, it’s not a stomach bug sort of feeling though… It’s more like a “Something is going to happen” feeling. I mean I don’t know if it’s just from me stressing or if it’s a sign that someone is going to get really sick, possibly even myself. I’m a bit worried but I have MUCH better things to talk about!

First of all, I’m signing up for this really cool summer class that one of my mom’s friends run. It’s for students who are interested in going into the medical field. Only about 7 students get in every year and I’m one of them! I’m am so excited to work with the nurses and doctors! Technically, it isn’t a registered program and it’s free but, it’s an amazing learning opportunity that I’m really excited for! We will be going to a few different hospitals and meeting some of the staff which will probably be my favourite part because I love meeting new people. 😀

Alright, now I can talk about me. As you know by my profile, I’m 14 and I’m bisexual but there’s a LOT more to me than that. I live in Ontario, Canada and I love school. It’s a place where I feel safe, and where I can be as curious as I want without people getting angry. I’m in 9th grade and my favorite class so far is science. I plan on going to college and university to get my bachelor of science in nursing because my dream since I was 7 was to be a pediatric nurse and so that’s what I’m going to do. Hmm, what else… I love animals I have 2 dogs, plants are great too I have about 4 of them in my room… I don’t know what else to say. I have a girlfriend, she’s great and my friends are too.

This is a recent picture of me. I was on my way to a Christmas party which was honestly really boring!

That’s enough about me. I want to know about you guys! Send me an email, comment down below, something so I can acknowledge that you exist! That’s all for today, see ya tomorrow!

Why?

Hello, beautiful people of the world! Today has been, well, eventful. It started off with me waking up at 3 am! Who does that without a reason? Apparently me haha! Alright well, 5 hours later my two dogs, Mia and Bella, jump onto my bed and begin to play fighting right on top of me! So, Bella is a Shi-Tzu which if you don’t know, is a very small dog and Mia is a Bernese Mountain Dog bred with a Labrador, making her quite large. Now they are fighting and all of a sudden my sister, who is 26, comes into my room and asks “Wheres the gun?”. I look over and shes sleepwalking! I told her it’s under her pillow and she believed me. Sort of… Anyways, 5 minutes later I go check on her and she’s fast asleep so I guess she gave up on her search. At lunch, I got an email from a past friend of mine that read “Why would you do this to me? Why?”. I was clueless, you see, we haven’t spoken in over 3 years now. I replied simply with “What are you talking about?”. After about 2 hours of waiting for a reply, she finally says “You turned me gay.”. At this point, I’m extremely confused. We go 3 years without contact and now, out of the blue, she’s telling me I “turned” her gay. So, I start thinking about what to say to her, and all I say is “Congratulations?”. She and I used to be super close friends, and now that she knows she’s gay, she wants to talk again! I’m really excited because I missed her a lot. The reason we stopped talking originally was due to the fact that my siblings are gay (Brother is gay, sister is a lesbian.) and her family doesn’t accept it. So, now she is dealing with this whole new thing in her life and she realized that she lost her best friend because of something that she is. She sent me one last email about an hour ago that says “I’m sorry Kayla. I shouldn’t have ditched you the way I did. I should’ve talked to you, or just simply realized that my family isn’t me. I didn’t realize then, that I was in love with you. I mean, I’m not anymore, I have a girlfriend and we are really happy, but I was. I’m sorry I took so long to contact you. I miss you and I’m really excited to meet up! ❤ ❤ <3” Well, this has been my day. If you’re reading this, I appreciate it! I’m serious, I really do enjoy sharing my life with others if it means I’m helping them!